Grief does not follow a straight path. It is not about it starting awful and gradually getting better week by week. Time does not relate to 'getting better'. The loss of your own child is a forever journey of constantly doing loops and revisiting what happened and the pain. You cannot return to the path you were on. This journey has been 'derailed' and you find yourself living a new 'normal'. You revisit the pain and grief frequently over your lifetime but over time the pain doesn't stab so deep and the recovery quicker. Your baby and loss are never left behind but rather move alongside you on your journey.
Remember we are also here as a constant companion on your journey.